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For the past few days I have found myself up late unable to sleep. Chatting with whoever is up, or I would watch a movie. I would stay up to the point of exhaustion. So that when I do sleep I wouldn't dream. I would just pass out till the afternoon. Some Demon has been attacking me with awful nightmares. Nightmares that seem so real I pass them off as reality. In my dreams I would wake from sleep as normal but everything wouldn't be alright I would wake up sick asthma allergies everything that I used to struggle with would be back. In my dream I wouldn't pray for healing. I would just lie there and suffer, and a darkness like no other would consume me. I felt like just letting go of life once more. Then when it seemed the most unbearable and when I felt so vulnerable and Godless I would wake up, but it wouldn't be the end of my night. I was still dreaming. I would wake in my dream and shake off the nightmare and as I rise from my bed all the light from the room would vanish and I could feel something pulling me back to my bed back to the nightmare. Then I realized I was still asleep and my mind is abruptly brought back to consciousness by fear. I am awake now but I cant open my eyes I cant sit up my body wont respond this demon wont let me go. My head is swimming with fear yet I feel myself drifting back into my hell. My nightmare. I cant utter a word I cant cry out for help I cant fight. I cant pray. But all I had to do was think his name. One word popped into my mind amongst all the chaos. Jesus and the demon released its hold on me I was able to get up and open my eyes and I didn't have to worry if I was dreaming or not because if I still was it was a good dream now. All I had to do was think his name Jesus and back up would be there. 




Jesus is there whenever you call him not just at the time of our salvation. That's not the only time we get to talk to him, When we struggle he is there for us to turn to, when we're doing good He is there for us to praise. He rescues me from myself and from the enemy all the time. I slept 10 hours last night. Jesus is not a broken man on a cross He is alive in heaven and in your heart if you give him the key. I no I can always turn to him as we all should. I no longer fear the world or the enemy because the Lord is with me.

Psalm 118:5-7

5 In my anguish I cried to the LORD,
and he answered by setting me free.

6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can man do to me?

7 The LORD is with me; he is my helper.
I will look in triumph on my enemies.